What is Human Development? Poem

What is Human Development? It all starts from the very beginning… Before a human even starts thinking And even before the heart starts beating It all starts at conception When the egg and sperm engage in flirtation That’s when it all begins As conception takes place The genetics and DNA become reality And then formsContinue reading “What is Human Development? Poem”

Making Peace with God

So I’m gonna be honest… I have been dreading writing this post. It’s not because it’s hard, I’m lazy or I just don’t want to talk about being restored in Jesus. I mostly think, my hesitation for writing this post is because I am so humbled and gracious for all God has provided for me.Continue reading “Making Peace with God”

The Best Thing My Husband Ever Told Me After My Miscarriage

My husband is amazing. In many ways we are the same, but in so many other ways we are completely opposite. We compliment each other pretty well. Sharing a life with another human isn’t complete bliss. There’s highs and lows when it comes to marriage. There’s friction, laughter, goofiness, inside jokes, stress, tension, devotion andContinue reading “The Best Thing My Husband Ever Told Me After My Miscarriage”

The Decision to Try Again

Sometime in May, after my breakthrough in counseling and our Mother’s Day Getaway… Charles and I continued considering the idea of trying again. If someone had told us that we would desire to have another baby a few months ago, after we had just lost our baby… I wouldn’t have believed it. But it’s true.Continue reading “The Decision to Try Again”

Mother’s Day Part 1: A Romantic Weekend Getaway on My First Mother’s Day as an Angel Mommy

During one of my counseling sessions in April, I discussed with my counselor how I was dreading Mother’s Day. Even though my baby would not have been born during this Mother’s Day, just the thought of seeing kids celebrating their moms would be triggering for me. My counselor suggested that I make plans for theContinue reading “Mother’s Day Part 1: A Romantic Weekend Getaway on My First Mother’s Day as an Angel Mommy”

The People Who Reached Out to Me

The days, weeks and even months after we lost our baby; I had many people reach out to us and show us support. The topic of miscarriage is such a taboo topic. People don’t know how to talk about it. People don’t know how to handle it. It’s sad, especially since it’s so common. IContinue reading “The People Who Reached Out to Me”

The Effects of Miscarriage on My Marriage

After Charles returned from Washington D.C. and I returned home… things were different. Since I hadn’t seen Charles since the day before my procedure, I guess I didn’t really know what to do or say. Sure, we had talked on the phone and stuff… but it still seemed awkward to talk in person after somethingContinue reading “The Effects of Miscarriage on My Marriage”

Saying Goodbye…

The minute I arrived at the hospital on Thursday February 28th, I started to cry. It was going to be a long day. When we walked into the building I called Charles. He was at the airport and at a lost for words. He so badly wanted to be here for me, but also wantedContinue reading “Saying Goodbye…”

A Trip to the Emergency Room

The night of February 26th, I was absolutely restless. I tossed and turned in bed until about 12:30am. I finally got up and started pacing. I was still staying with my parents. My dad woke up when he heard me awake pacing throughout the house. My dad kept me company and talked to me throughoutContinue reading “A Trip to the Emergency Room”

Valentine’s Week

The week of February 11th through the 15th was pretty crazy….. On Monday February 11th, when I was 9 weeks pregnant, I finally had my first OB appointment. This was the intake appointment where we were asked many questions about both sides of our family history, as well as mine and my husband’s health. IContinue reading “Valentine’s Week”

A Baby Girl

On Monday November 26th, I was experiencing a lot of baby fever. I really wanted to start a family, but also really wanted to finish school. So, I wrote this poem to capture my feelings and desires of having a baby girl someday. After my 8 week ultrasound in February, I was flipping through myContinue reading “A Baby Girl”

The First Time I Saw You

On the morning of February 5th, I was super excited. I could hardly sleep the night before. Today was the day I was having my 8 week ultrasound. Today was the day me and Charles were going to see baby for the very first time 🧡. My appointment was scheduled at 5:15pm at the AlternativesContinue reading “The First Time I Saw You”