My First Big Opportunity as a Blogger: Sharing My Story in Toi Magazine

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By June 2019 my blog and Instagram had really taken off. Parts of me was thankful and overwhelmed by the comments and subscribers I was receiving everyday. However, I also felt a sense of fear and vulnerability that I had never experienced before. In someway I just wanted to throw it all away, my blog and my story, but in others I wanted to keep pushing forward despite my overwhelming feeling of vulnerability. I decided to keep moving forward because I knew somewhere in this world, my story would help someone. I knew in someway, I was making a difference in this world.

After publishing my blog post The Hurtful Things People Say and What Not to Say After a Woman Has Had a Miscarriage, I received a message from Toi Magazine. As I read the message I was paralyzed with excitement and curiosity. The purpose of the message was to inquire if I would be interested in an interview with Toi Magazine and my story of suffering a miscarriage. I couldn.t believe it! I was actually being offered the opportunity to share my story in an international magazine! I had always dreamed of being published, but never knew if it would be possible. I talked over the message with my husband and my parents, then agreed to the interview.

Within two weeks I was sent various interview question prompts that I could do to write and share my story. I was in contact with the editor and expressed to her my gratitude of allowing me such an awesome opportunity to share my story. After I submitted my story, I couldn’t wait to see my article published.

The June/July issue of Toi Magazine was published July 2nd, 2019. I quickly jumped on Instagram and the website and perused the magazine… for a moment I was scared it wasn’t published, but then I found it. Four full pages of my article, my story and my big break.

If you are interested in reading the June/July Issue of Toi Magazine, click the link below.

Things to Say and Do After a Woman Has Had a Miscarriage

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A few months ago I wrote a blog post titled The Hurtful Things People Say and What not to Say After a Woman Has Had a Miscarriage. I had quite a response to this post, as not only did people find it helpful, but also encouraged me to write a follow up post about Things to Say and Do After a Woman Has Had a Miscarriage. So… here we go.

1. The Best Things You Can Say is “I Love You, I’m Here for You, and I’m Sorry for Your Loss”

Wouldn’t you agree that after someone dies, there’s not really much of anything that people can say to take the pain away. Even though people don’t like to see you hurt, they also don’t know what to say. And when it comes to experiencing a miscarriage, people really don’t know what to say. They can see your grieving, but they don’t feel the loss nearly as deeply because they didn’t meet or have a bond with the life that was once inside you. Unfortunately, our society does not know how to treat miscarriage as a loss or death.

When I was grieving and at my worst, people didn’t know what to say to me either. There were people who said a lot of the wrong things, and there were a lot of people who just left me alone. But the best things people said to me that were not hurtful, did not offer unsolicited advice, and were sensitive were: “I love you, I’m here for you, I’m sorry for your loss, if you ever want to talk let me know, I’m thinking about you and I’m praying for you.”

2. Offering to Clean, Cook and Run Errands.

You know how when someone dies, people make you food? Well, I really appreciated this. I don’t know why food is such a comfort, but it is. It seems that when people don’t know what to say they make food. I had a neighbor make dinner for my husband and I, a yummy dish from the Dominican… it was amazing. Our associate pastor and his wife made us chicken, green beans and potatoes…. so good. My sister in law, who worked all day invited us over and made us a feast! Bless her heart. And my Momma provided me with lots of comfort food when I was recovering from surgery. Food doesn’t make everything better, but in that moment of grief when you need something to numb it for awhile, food helps.

3. Pampering the Angel Mommy

Being pampered by friends and family helped me in many ways. My momma bought me a massage right before Mother’s Day. I had no idea how badly I needed it, until my tears and emotions came out all over the table. My husband went out and bought me chicken wings at midnight when I was having a really emotional night and couldn’t sleep. My bestie Alli came over in the middle of the night and we drove all over town eating Oreos. So many people did kind things for me, when I needed it most, I highly recommend this. Of course I also would recommend proceeding with caution and sensitivity.

4. Providing Space to the Grieving Couple

I feel this is super important. The Momma is not the only one that experiences a pregnancy loss. Sure, she is the only one that experiences the physical pain of loss, but it’s also important to remember that father’s grieve too. I know of many men, my husband included who not only struggle to help their wives grieve, but also felt somewhat disregarded when it came to their grief and emotions. So, it is super important to allow the grieving couple time and space. Even recommending a getaway could be beneficial… but again proceed with caution.

5. Check In

Hearing the worst news, that your baby is gone is heartbreaking. It honestly numbs you. Looking back now, I barely remember the time in between my ultrasound and my surgery, and the whole month of March is a blur. I do remember laying in bed a lot, eating occasionally, crying until my head hurt and listening to sad music. I also remember having people check in. It’s something I would have never asked for, but truly appreciated. I had friends and family call and text me daily just to check in and make sure I was alive. So many of them opened the doors for communication and gave encouraging words to my tender broken heart. I highly recommend checking in on a friend or loved one if they have suffered a loss. It’s not much, but also not to pushy. Even if they don’t respond it is still nice that people care for you when you are feeling so alone, Sure, there were many times I didn’t want to talk, but I still loved that so many people cared. ❀️

6. Be Sensitive with Your Words

This is a big one… and I can’t stress this enough. Please be very careful with your words. After suffering a loss your mind and your heart are in a truly fragile state. It is likely that the grieving mother is heart broken, constantly blaming herself and hating life. So, it is truly important not to contribute to these emotions of anger and sorrow by saying things like “You’re young you’ll have more, or You shouldn’t have stressed yourself out so much, or at least you already have a baby.” For my advice on what not to say after having a miscarriage, check out my additional post at the bottom of this page.

7. Honoring Their Loss

Above anything else I’ve said, I think this is actually the most important. One of the biggest fears that I and so many moms have, is that the child they have lost will be forgotten, as if that little life that lived in them had never existed. It means the world to me when friends and family talk about my baby. It may make me sad and weepy, but also makes me feel loved and my baby never forgotten. I really appreciate it when’s friends and family are sensitive and saying they are thinking of me on holidays and anniversaries, because they know it’s not going to be an easy day for me. Showing love and honoring the baby’s memory is literally the best thing you can do to help a woman after a miscarriage.

I am not an expert or doctor in anyway, just a woman, a writer and a woman who has lost a baby. I hope these little pieces of advice help in some way. If you are reading this and you have suffered an unimaginable lost, I just want to say I’m so sorry for your loss, reach out to me anytime and this was not your fault,

If you are interested in reading about what not to do after a woman has had a miscarriage, check out my post:

Redecorating My Home Office

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There’s just something truly satisfying about organizing and redecorating. This summer since I have had the opportunity to relax and stay home, I have been extremely motivated to organize and redecorate my whole apartment. One of the very first rooms I tackled this summer was my spare room.

My spare room or second bedroom has always kind of been a storage room, but this summer I wanted to turn it into my home office. Before redecorating my home office, I decided not to take any before pictures. It’s not because there wasn’t a huge transformation, but rather I just didn’t feel like showing the whole world my clutter room.

I am very excited about how my office turned out.

I reorganized my desk, put up a bulletin board, and opened up this space to not only make it positive but productive.

I hung twinkle lights under my windowsill and above my desk. I find this calming and comforting. I placed my metal chair and ottoman in the corner for a place to write and blog.

On top of my filing cabinet I have a blessings box. This was a bridal shower gift given to me by my bestie Alli. When Charles and I have something awesome happen, we write it on a card and place it in our blessings box.

This corner still has some storage items. This is where I keep many of my Etsy products as well as just simple storage.

I found this winter painting at an estate sale and absolutely love it! Ya’ll might think I’m crazy for hanging up a winter picture…. but I’m from Michigan and we see snow at least 6 months out of the year.

This cabinet/tv stand I found at a yard sale for $2. I use this to store my books, art supplies, and Etsy inventory.

Thank you all so much for checking out my new home office. I hope you enjoyed it!

People Who Inspire Me: Meet My Daddy… A True Patriot πŸ‡ΊπŸ‡Έ

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“Anyone can be a father… but it takes someone special to be a Dad.” This is something my Dad used to tell me all the time. When I was 6 years old, I met my Dad. He wasn’t my Dad at the time, he was a parent volunteer at my elementary school. He was the parent volunteer that everyone adored. He was tall, goofy, got along with other parents and had a somewhat screwed up sense of humor that would mess with all of our young minds. As much as I had thought he was weird, he still seemed like a good person.

When I was 8 years old and in the third grade, I can recall my mom volunteering a lot more in my school. I loved when my mom would volunteer for my field trips and holiday parties. She loved it too. She loved spending time with me, but also had her eye on the man who would one day become my dad.

One afternoon in the car, I remember my mom asking me if it would be okay if we asked Jeff (the goofy parent volunteer) and his son to walk the holiday Christmas lights downtown. I thought that would be a lot of fun and she said she would do it and say it was my idea. I guess she thought Jeff would be more inclined to say yes… because let’s face it, I was an adorable 8 year old.

Fast forward to when I was 11 years old, in the 6th grade and homeschooled. It was a freezing Ground Hogs day, as my parents got married at the court house. It was the very first wedding I was ever in, as well as the coldest. The way I tell this story is slightly different than the way my dad does. He likes to say him and Mom met in the first grade, started dating in the third grade and got married in the sixth grade. Really, it was us kids who were in grade school, not our parents… but hey, he can tell the story the way he wants to.

From that moment on, my mom, my stepdad and my stepbrother all had the same last name. I was the only one with a different name. I felt very left out. My parents knew how I felt. My mom knew for years that I prayed and wished for a Daddy, and on May 5th 2008 my wish came true. My Daddy adopted me. It was legal. It was official. Blood didn’t matter. I was his daughter and we were family.

My Dad is one of kind. I don’t really know how else to put it. He’s funny… or at least tries to be funny. He’s witty and quick on his feet when it comes to puns, inside jokes and bathroom humor. He’s got a little red neck/country boy in him that likes to show from time to time. He enjoys listening to old country music, watching the Blue Collar comedy tour and Nascar as well as gaining wisdom from those older than him.

He’s hard working… so hard working and doesn’t want to stop working. He works on lawn mowers, collects fire wood, cleans the gutters and gives an oil change to my car all in one day! That’s just how he is and how he was raised. It’s in his genes. He enjoys helping others and providing for his family.

He’s proud. I believe this sense of pride has been passed down to him. My dad is so proud of me. So much so, that I don’t think I deserve it half the time. He’s also proud of his family. He loves my mom dearly, as well as other close friends that we call family. He’s also proud of those who have fought for the freedom of our country.

My Dad and my Grandpa have put on flag retirements for the local community for 20+. years. For those of you who don’t know, a flag retirement ceremony is a ceremony where American flags are burned and disposed of with honor. This is done with honor by playing patriotic music, reading patriotic poems and stories and even thanking the veterans who attend the ceremony.

My Dad has been flying solo during the flag retirements for about the last three years since my Grandpa got sick and passed away in 2017. My Mom, Grandma, brother and I all help him when we can. During each flag retirement, my dad is so incredibly proud and thankful for those who have not only served our country, but also attend these ceremonies in order to honor our veterans.

My Dad is a true patriot. No he didn’t serve in the military, and no he’s not a politician, or some sort of other government worker. He’s my Dad. He’s a retired firefighter who has dedicated his life to helping others, serving his community, being a good husband and being an amazing Dad. So, Dad if you’re reading this, I just want to say thank you. Thank you for your service. You make me proud. ❀️

Receiving the Sunshine Blogger Award

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I was nominated for the Sunshine Blogger Award by Ilona Madam over at Thank you Ilona so much for this nomination! It truly means a lot. In fact this is the very first blog award nomination I have ever received, so thank you! And for those of you who are reading, please take a minute to go check out her blog. She’s great!


  1. Use the sunshine blogger award logo
  2. Give thanks to the blogger that nominated you
  3. Answer the 11 questions given to you
  4. Nominate 11 other bloggers and ask them 11 questions


  1. What is your favorite health food or snack? There are so many choices, but I honestly love snacking on a ripe avocado πŸ₯‘. .
  2. What is your favorite place to visit? I love up north Michigan, especially in Fall when the leaves are changing 🍁.
  3. What is the best thing about van life? I have no idea what this question is… but I think if I had a van, I’m sure I would enjoy it. πŸ˜‡
  4. What was your very first pet? A cat who hated me. His name was Big Kitty 🐱.
  5. What is your favorite movie? Hmmm…. it’s always changing. If you ask my husband he’d say any Disney movie, But I guess I would have to go with my all time favorite Disney’s Tarzan 🏰.
  6. Why did you start blogging? I started blogging as a therapeutic way to cope with my grief after suffering a miscarriage. I didn’t really think it would amount to much or people would even read it. But honestly I have really enjoyed blogging, and have even turned it into a platform of advocating and helping other women of whom have experienced loss πŸ’».
  7. Is family very important to you? Yes, family is everything to me. I wouldn’t be where I am today without them. ❀️
  8. What does life mean to you? This is a super deep question. I guess life to me means we all have a purpose and are all meant to love one another as God has shown His love for us β›ͺ️.
  9. What is your favorite thing to do when traveling? Taking pictures and trying new food πŸ₯˜.
  10. What do you love the most about blogging? Purpose and Growth.
  11. Who is your inspiration? My Mom. She’s incredible. 🧑

I honestly feel really weird listing off 11 bloggers for this award. Truthfully, there are so many amazing bloggers out there, and so many blogs I have yet to discover. So if you are reading this… consider yourself nominated. Also, I am keeping the same questions since I think they’re great. πŸ™‚

Completing My Internship

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I was seriously starting to feel like this day would never come. I started my internship at a government agency on January 8th, 2019. I started this adventure the day before I got pregnant. I switched internship sites around February 7th… when I was 8 weeks into my pregnancy. After many, many extensions, missed and made up hours, meetings, projects, papers, presentations and an incomplete… I officially did it. I completed my 6 credit internship! There were so many times I thought I would fail or just give up… but I didn’t.

I am so grateful for my internship and all that I have learned. Even though I had other crazy personal obstacles and traumas that were going on, I was still able to find value in my work at my internship. Being a Sexual Assault Peer Educator taught me how to be an advocate, not just for survivors of sexual assault but also in my line of work of advocating for women and children’s health, and women of whom have suffered a miscarriage and infant loss. This internship also taught me valuable coping skills, how to heal through my personal trauma, as well as how to help others after suffering a trauma… and for that I am eternally grateful. ❀️

Biblical Scriptures I Found Helpful After A Miscarriage

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After my miscarriage, I was very angry with God. I appreciated people who prayed for me, but I did not want to hear of God’s promises or biblical scripture. I was having a crisis of faith. Eventually, I was able to find joy and forgiveness in God and what He has planned for me. The following is a list biblical scriptures that I found helpful after my miscarriage. My hope is that if you are reading this… you can also find joy and comfort in these scriptures.

“Yet those who wait for the Lord, will gain new strength. They will mount up with wings like eagles. They will run and not get tired. They will walk and not become weary.” – Isaiah 40:31

“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.” – Psalms 56:3

“God is within her, she will not fall. God will help her at break of day.” – Psalm 46:5

“Blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted.” – Matthew 5:4

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 4:6 – 7

“Cast all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you.” – 1 Peter 5:7

“Be still, and know that I am God.” – Psalm 46:10

My Self Care Plan… and How to Create Your Own Self Care Plan.

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As an aspiring Family Life Educator, I have been educated on and practically had the importance of self care drilled into my head. Self care is basically what an individual chooses to do in order to take care of themselves. Self care is extremely important for your physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual health as well as every aspect of our lives. It is also very important and highly encouraged in order to avoid burn out and compassion fatigue.

Below is my own personal self care plan.

My Self Care Plan

Physical Health

– Drinking plenty of water, 4 – 8 glasses a day.

– Eating Healthy, incorporating fruits and veggies into my diet.

– Exercise, Walking, Yoga, and Stretching

Emotional Health

– Writing in my journal or blog.

– Spending time with friends and family

– Listening to music

– Binge watching Netflix

Mental Health

– Organizing my planner

– Going to Counseling

– Enjoying quiet moments

– Knitting and Crocheting

– Enjoying a Fresh cup of coffee

Social Life

– Attending Hockey Games

– Going on Dates with my husband

– Meeting up with old friends

Spiritual Life

– Reading my bible

– Praying

– Going to church

– Enjoying fellowship with other believers.

Now it’s your turn! What’s your self care plan? What are some activities you do in order to relax and recharge? Whether you are a new mom, an author, retired, a work-a-holic or anything in between, I can guarantee we all can benefit from self care. With that being said…..

What kind of activities do you do in order to help your physical health?

What kind of activities do you do in order to help your emotional health?

What kind of activities do you do in order to help your mental health?

What kind of activities do you do in order to help your social life?

What kind of activities do you do in order to help your spiritual life?

I challenge YOU to write out your own self care plan. Once it is complete put it in a place where you see it and can be reminded daily to take care of YOU. If you need ideas of various self care activities, feel free to check out my previous post on 25 Self Care Ideas to Try This Summer.

I would love to hear from YOU! Feel free to comment or message me your self care ideas and activities you do in order to take care of YOU!

Abortion: A Topic That is Triggering to Women Who Have Miscarried

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With all the talk of abortion lately… I decided to write this post. I was quite hesitant in that this topic is so controversial. Now my intention is not to turn this post into a debate or to push my views on to other people. My goal for this post is to simply offer a new perspective to many who may not have considered it. I’m also not going to clearly state whether or not I am pro life or pro choice. I am simply offering a perspective that I believe others have experienced too.

After having my miscarriage, the topic of abortion became very triggering to me. This was mostly because I was a different person and I looked at things differently. I watched many people have debates over social and news media. I saw graphic pictures throughout my campus. All of these things were very upsetting, but the one thing that set me off the most was my medical bills. When I received my medical bills I was not only trigged by the reminder of my miscarriage, but I was also triggered by the medical lingo that was used. Spontaneous Abortion. I looked at those two words and felt sick to my stomach. Home alone, I screamed at the top of my lungs “I did not have an abortion!” I was heated.

After doing some research it seems this is the proper terminology that is used when it is recorded that a woman has a D & C after a miscarriage. Despite that I still had uneasy feelings about it. Did I really have an abortion? I didn’t have a choice if my baby would live or die. Did I do something wrong? Should I have opted to have my miscarriage naturally? It took me weeks before I found the answers to these questions, and strangely enough I stumbled upon them in a devotional I received from a friend. In the devotional it states that yes, according to medical terminology I did have a spontaneous abortion. I could choose to look at it from that perspective, or I could choose to look at it another way. My baby physically left my body like any other women who has a natural vaginal delivery. There were tools used to help remove my baby yes, but my cervix still dilated. So, instead of looking at it like an abortion, I choose to look at it like labor. I labored my baby who sadly was born sleeping.

If you are reading this and you haven’t had a miscarriage, first thank you for reading, and secondly keep in mind there is likely a woman in your life that has had a miscarriage. I would also like us all to keep that in mind the next time we discuss or debate the topic of abortion. Always consider your audience and who might be listening. Abortion is a very touchy topic and just because I find it triggering doesn’t mean other women will. However I will leave it at this. I did everything right, and my baby died. I didn’t have a choice… and it hurts.

Grief & Mercy Blog Post Round Up: A List of My Top Viewed, Liked and Commented Blog Posts

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This is my very first Blog Post Round Up! I’m excited! I have compiled a list of the most liked, most viewed, most commented and overall most popular and favorite blog posts I have written so far. Writing in general is hugely therapeutic to me. However, writing my blog, and reflecting on my story has truly changed me for the better. So join me. Sit back and relax as I reflect on my most popular blog posts.

1. The Worst Day of My Life

This blog post was one of the hardest ones I have ever had to write. In fact I think it took me about three days to finish because it was just emotionally draining to reflect on. However, I’m glad I did it. I tried my best not to leave out any details because I truly wanted each one of you reading this to understand and feel what I was feeling that day. If you haven’t read this post yet, go check it out. I will warn you it is very raw as this post talks about my final ultrasound when I discovered I had had a missed miscarriage.

2. Finding Out I Was Pregnant

This Post was the second one I ever published. I enjoyed writing this post as it reminded me of the joy and good feelings I had when I found out I was pregnant. I also enjoy looking back at how I found I was pregnant. If you haven’t read this post yet, I encourage you too. πŸ™‚

3. Seeing The Rainbow

This post is actually one of my personal favorites. I now have come to love rainbows and beg my husband to come with me after a thunderstorm to see if we can find any in the sky. The fact that I saw this particular rainbow exactly 2 weeks after my surgery, still blows me a way. I was having a hard time and it appeared in the sky just when I needed it… as if it’s a sign from Heaven above.

4. The First Time I Saw You

Seeing my baby at my 8 week ultrasound appointment was one of the happiest moments of my life. The minute I saw the image of a little blob and heartbeat on the screen, I was in love. So tiny. So innocent. It hurt as I wrote this post because I remembered all the joy I had when I saw her, and just over a week later she was gone. However, I feel very blessed to be able to have seen her and her beating heart.

5. The Hurtful Things People Say… and What NOT To Say After A Woman Has A Miscarriage

After publishing this post, I actually had quite a response from many different people. In fact I had a few requests that I write an additional post on the things people should say to a woman after having a miscarriage. I found this to be a great idea. It is very important that we as people know what not to do but also ideas on what we can do to help an angel mommy in her grief. The additional post on what to do to help a woman after miscarriage will be coming soon.

6. The People Who Reached Out To Me

Writing this post was humbling. I was able to reflect back and think about all the people who helped, prayed and supported me and my husband through this time of loss. Even though I wasn’t able to remember everyone, you know who you are and I am truly eternally grateful.

7. Leap of Faith

This was my very first blog post. This was the moment I became a writer. This is when I allowed myself to be vulnerable and created my online identity as a writer, an angel mommy and a miscarriage and infant loss advocate. This is how it all got started.

8. The Decision to Share My Story

This blog post was also a very hard one to write. I think it’s mostly because I remember the thoughts and feelings of wanting to share my story. I remember feeling so engulfed in my grief and trauma that it still feels like it was yesterday. None the less, I am so thankful I shared my story as it has helped other women not feel so alone and has helped me to heal.

9. The Birthstone Ring

This post is another one of my favorites. Not only do I talk about one of the many hurtful things that was said to me after I miscarried my baby, but it also reminds me of my husband and how truly amazing he is. The days after my miscarriage he was walking on egg shells not sure what to do. I was horrible to him, and yet he never left my side. He did his best to understand me through this loss. I love him so much.

10. Saying Goodbye…

Writing this post I felt very raw and emotional. I discussed my thoughts and feelings on the day I had my D & C. When trying to find an image for this post I wasn’t sure if I would be able to find one. However, when I looked through my phone I stumbled upon this one. I don’t have any memory of taking this picture, and I don’t even know if I’m the one who took it. I don’t know why this picture was taken, but I’m glad it was.

11. 10 Weeks Pregnant… A Fourth of the Way There

This post I didn’t expect to be very popular… but it was. I think many readers enjoyed this post because it mostly talked about the ups and downs of pregnancy. I’m sure so many women can relate. This post made me really miss being pregnant. As much as I complained when I was pregnant, I would give anything to go back.

12. Starting My Blog

The idea to start a blog, actually came from my counselor. At first I wasn’t totally sold on the idea but I thought I’d give it a try. I honestly didn’t think anyone would even read it. Miscarriage is such a sad topic, so I didn’t think anyone would be interested. However, after having a huge turn out, this motivated me to continue blogging and talking about my life as well as a very difficult topic.

13. The Hours Leading Up To My Procedure

This post also got a lot of views and is one of my personal favorites. In this post I discuss the last few hours of being pregnant and saying goodbye to my baby. It was hard. It was painful. But it was what I needed to do. This post also shows the very last pregnancy bump picture I took.

14. A Calling to Advocate

This post is the reason I started blogging, to advocate and bring awareness of miscarriage and infant loss. When I realized my calling of being an advocate, I felt like I got hit by a truck. I realized this is what I am meant to do for the rest of my life. Even though I’m just getting started, I am already enjoying the journey.

Well there you have it. My first blog post round up is complete. Thank you so much to everyone who has been reading and following along on my journey of healing, growth and advocacy. Before finishing this post I just want to give you all a sneak peek on some posts ahead.

Looking Ahead…..

Breakthrough in Counseling & Finding Acceptance

Scripture I Found Helpful After My Miscarriage

Loved Baby Devotional Book Review

Thanks For Reading!!! β€οΈπŸ’»β˜€οΈ

Starting My Blog

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As I went through grief counseling in April, I reached a lot of milestones. At this point I had gone through every stage of grief at least once, except for acceptance. I was starting to become more stable with my emotions, and ultimately I felt good as I made steps in the right direction. During one counseling session, I discussed how I wanted to share my story in detail. I didn’t know how to do it, but I knew I had a lot to say. My counselor suggested starting a blog.

I considered this idea for a little while. It was one of those ideas I couldn’t let go. I lost sleep over it as I contemplated this as the answer I had been looking for. Is this what I’m meant to do? Am I meant to be an advocate through blogging? This thought consumed me. I wrote a timeline of different event topics from the time I got pregnant until now. As I looked at my very long list of topics, I realized this was my next step.

I started my blog with my first blog post Leap of Faith. I decided that would be a good title for my first post as this was a leap of faith. Creating a blog and talking about how I have gone through a pregnancy, miscarriage and healing was not only risky but also vulnerable. I had no idea who would read it, what people would think or how I would be perceived as a person. Even though all these thoughts and fears came to mind, I still wanted to do it. I wanted to share my story. I wanted to give resources and support to those who have experienced the same form of loss. I wanted to write and share my story… and so I did,

“And what, you ask does writing teach us? First and foremost, it reminds us that we are alive, and that it is a gift and privilege, not a right.” – Ray Bradbury

My Summer 2019 Bucket List Check In

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Here’s a quick update of my summer bucket list and what I have accomplished thus far.

My Summer Bucket List

  1. βœ… Take a weekend getaway with my husband
  2. Visit Lake Michigan 3 times 2/3 so far….
  3. βœ… Go garage sailing
  4. Visit 10 different cafΓ©s 5/10 so far….
  5. βœ… Write up to 50 posts on my blog
  6. Go to Disneyland
  7. βœ… See Aladdin in theaters
  8. Commit to a weekly workout routine
  9. Reorganize and decorate my apartment
  10. βœ… Complete my internship
  11. βœ… See Toy Story 4 in theaters
  12. βœ… Visit with old friends
  13. Read 2 new books 1/2
  14. Go kayaking
  15. βœ… See A Dog’s Journey in theaters
  16. βœ… Start Eating Healthier
  17. Lose 15lbs 4/15 so far….

Leap of Faith

Just Me Blogging, Miscarriage

Hello World!

My name is Kaylee. I’m taking a leap of faith by starting a blog. I’ve actually always wanted to start a blog, but never had the courage. Honestly, I didn’t really think I had anything worthy of reading and writing about…. until now. Recently, in a counseling appointment, I came to the realization that I wanted to share my story. Therefore, my counselor encouraged me to journal and blog. So, here I am. Before I dig into the nitty gritty of what this blog is about, let me tell you a little bit about myself.

I am 23 years old and have been married to my husband Charles for 2 1/2 years. We live in the beautiful state of Michigan, and I have lived here all my life. We are both full time students balancing classes, jobs, and our marriage. I am currently studying Family Life Education, and my hope is to graduate December 2019… but we’ll see. In my spare time I enjoy spending time with my family, knitting and crocheting, writing (….da, that’s why I created a blog), organizing and decorating, traveling… especially to the lake shore, sleeping, and binge watching Netflix. πŸ™‚

Creating this blog was a big step. This past year, I have had insane ups and downs, grief, joy, trauma, anxiety, depression and crisis of faith all wrapped in one. In order to get through these many obstacles in my life, I have had to be willing to pursue a journey towards healing. This has not been easy. It is incredible that one large event can create ripples through out my life, family and friends, and affect everything. What I went through on February 25th, changed my life forever.

I am 1 in 4 women who have suffered a miscarriage. I refuse to stay silent about the trauma I have endured. Miscarriages are more common than people realize because we don’t talk about them. Since my experience I feel that I need to share my story, not only for myself and my own personal healing, but also for other women who are suffering in silence.

I realize that reading about a miscarriage can be sad. I also realize that my story can be triggering to others, as everyone goes through something in their life. So, if you are triggered or are unable to continue reading what I have wrote, it’s okay to stop and take care of you. I appreciate you reading this far. πŸ™‚ I am going to be sharing very intimate details of my miscarriage that may be hard to hear… but unfortunately the reality is miscarriage in itself is hard to hear. I also realize that any woman reading this may have also suffered a miscarriage in the past, present and future. My goal of this blog is not to make others sad, but to bring awareness about miscarriage.

So, if you are still with me and want to hear my story then sit back, relax and come with me as I embark on this journey of writing and healing.